Jason Lim 林建伸 [uKo]™Poisoner

Leaving This Blog

2010-01-08T13:03:00.004+08:00

I'm leaving this blog~ I Got My New Blog! Yey!

http://daitaoguai.blogspot.com/

My Indox "October 25, 2009"

2010-01-07T22:20:00.005+08:00

October 25, 2009 at 2:03am Report

你為我改變了太多寶貝我真的好愛你
每當看見你與從前的不同我的淚水總會滑下來只是你沒看見
戀愛中的你好像個大小孩可愛的大男孩
我想說你是個很好的男朋友真的很滿分
能做你的女朋友我真的感到好好好幸福
你知道嗎每一個早晨每一個夜晚睡醒睡前你是第一個記憶畫面
每一天我總好想你想你陪我吃陪我讀書陪我做功課 XD
好想好想你就是我的所有
話說回來我不需要像別的女生要求要有錢有車的男朋友我知道你是大丈夫我也好喜歡所以我知道你不會接受老婆幫你那麼我決定了我陪你省錢你要記得我永遠的等你因為我知道有一天你會出人頭地會養我照顧我是不是？所以你的承諾要好好遵守哦好好念書我要看到你成功
好了累了我陪你一塊兒睡覺給多我幾分鐘整理時間表就睡了

記得你和我永遠都是一樣的我會一直在你背後做你的快樂老婆

~废话连篇~

旧的不走，新的不来！

2010-01-06T15:34:00.003+08:00

Yo! Damn! I'm in good mood! Having 35 kills with Slark wow~ Only die once~

When DotA-ing, Thing of having my new blog...

ＮＥＷ　ＢＬＯＧ！！！

Aiya... Dunno what it is going to call... zZzzz q[U.U]p

"生活走为两个人" Madness of The Past

2010-01-06T12:56:00.012+08:00

Put my previous post aside. Now, I'm going to talk something mad.

Talking about spending time with your love ones, you must understand them, care for them, or just like 海派甜心's teory, make your love one happy, always have a smile on the face.

The SMS is still here, she always mentioned about, why am I always didn't care about her feeling? Then I wanna say, why don't she put this in my way, I ask her back about what she told me.

She talks about, she have dream, and I will affect her mood and innovation, and she told that, “我把生活走为两个人... 可是你是一个人！一个人生活一个人走....” Then I will say out loud, we NEVER MEET BEFORE, of coz we are walking alone. All I can do is to phone her every night, I can't even stay beside her to keep you warm. ONLY MESSAGES to keep you warm only.

When talking about hanging out together, she will say, SPM arh, I have to study. Har? After SPM arh? Maybe I'm very busy... And she says, "If you really love someone, meeting each other is really that important?"

What can I say? Everyone is asking, do you meet her before? Asked about this and that, I don't even have the answers because of I never meet her. Shame isn't it? What a silly person I am. Always pretending infront of my friends.

And for her comfort when some BIG INCIDENT happened, I don't really need them actually, I was just dragging time for me to think, or maybe it is just a excuses for her to show some care on me.

And talking about “你每天都只是忙你的东西，和我信息... 可以不回的，要不然就是三个钟回一封！”， she don't even like to SMS or MSN, only love to make phone calls. Sometimes, I'm in the class, and my phone is on vibration mode. I waited for her reply, but it takes a long time, so I just leave it be, that is why I didn't recheck my inbox.

Then are she understand me well enough? When I want to explain, she sure won't accept, because she have her OWN RULES. And I have to follow. If there is a single rejection of her, the quarrel will be back.

She is talking about, I am toying her. Then I would say, am I a tool to her? She has feelings, and I don't?

And I was blaming myself everytimes, every second, what for? I'm always thinking of, what I did wrong? How to solve this? How to solve that? Did she thinks of that?

Why am I blaming myself?! Did I really did wrong?! Ya! Maybe I do! I did something wrong when I really can't take it anymore. I almost got bang by a car when I was having a phone call, asking her "How are you?" on the middle of the road. And what is her reply? nothing. But showing me some EMO reaction.

She got her temper, and I got mine. What she told me at the last day, "你不觉得我很自私吗？我把我们的感情...我很乱..." On that time, I wanted to say, "我比你跟乱!" I was busy preparing to go to my cousin's house, it was in a hurry situation. But still, I have to listen to some explaination of hers.

And she don't know about my parents expression, when I looked at them, their face are black in color, sitting on the sofa, waiting for me. And I'm holding my handphone with my shoulder while I was wearing my jeans in my room. Then I heard that my mom said in low voice to my dad, “你的孩子真不懂事，要不要他也罢，最好他搬去那女子的家，不用烦，不必要一直看到他包电话粥。”

Did she think of my feeling on that time? And I have to drive afterward, and she does not even know that I'm scare of roads, Ah Lai do. I cannot drive when my mind is in a mess.

Because I was to damn FUCKING things to think of, I forgot to bring my charger, and my handphone was running out of batteries.

And what she told her friends, "Jason Lim don't want her, I want to break up with her." Ya, maybe I really do, coz she never cares.

When she talks about old stories of hers, I really doesn't care. Now you are with me, don't ever drag them and put it in my situation. Do she know what I feel? She asked me not to say that word, and I was controlling myself not to say it. But that is a strong word, and it is meant to say on that time.

Because of her bad past and I have to do that, It does not matters to me! ALL I CARE IS, SHE CAN PUT DOWN THE PAST, AND JUST ACCEPT IT, ACCEPT THE WORD, ACCEPT ME! I was hoping that She can take it as a help for herself, a cure, not about what I need from her.

But when I explain this to her, what will she says? I don't have the need to forget, and she gives me tons of "!@#$%^&*" And at the last, I'm still think, Did she ever listen to me?

And now, it is like, I owe her everything, like she are the one who only got hurt.

I was planning to give her a gift for Christmas, but it doesn't really matters anymore.
The thing I was gonna do is full with meanings and thoughts for her, but I got no chance to show that anymore.

Well, maybe it was a good thing too, to show me something.

"生活走为两个人" I really does not see that coming.
I can only see a herside, not both on myside.

EVERYTHING IS ABOUT HER, NOT ME.

Hope I could see what is in her mind.

Does it really matters about what she thinks?
It does, It always does, I Care.

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Why Am I Being Emotive? =.=

Why Am I Writing This In This Time? =.=!!

My Second Blog Post

2010-01-06T09:13:00.002+08:00

Phew~ 神早老老 then starting to do a morning day dreaming already~

There is still a funny thing that I felt inside myself, but I never review it. But it won't be again, because I'm going to write about it right now!

LoL!~ Maybe it will sound silly and childish Q.Q!!

3 Month ago, I got to knew her, then I do some stupid talking, or you can called it "some advices"~ Whatever you called it. Then, we be together already.

What am I planning on that time?
"NEVER GET TOO SERIOUS ABOUT HER", that is what I planned.

I won't step into this big and deep hole of LOVE.

Ya! That is what I think!
I'm bad, isn't it? But what can I do while having a stranger as my girlfriend?

Because I never know her well, never meet her before, never this never that, bla bla bla~ So, I hurt her unexpectedly.
I still remembered, I was overnight at Poh's house,
and I was lying on the bed,
sleeping witout answering any calls. What an bad egg I am... =.=

Then, I finally realized that, I'm wrong,
I shouldn't think of any of "NEVER GET TOO SERIOUS ABOUT HER"
I tried to understand her, care about her.

Days after days, I fell into this stupid hole!
Now, I'm getting serious about it.
So, I'm "upgrading" myself to her.

But one day, I posted this on my second blog,

"Actually, I don't even know what she is thinking. In the afternoon, I sent her so many msg, her reply is juz like fu yanme. I know my msg aren't that sweet, but I really hope that she whouldbe happy, I don't wanna see her suffer, don't wanna see her sad, andfeel lonely.

For sometimes, I'm really scare of talking to her. I must be extremelycare for what I'm saying. Especially when I was tired at around 11pm orlater. Every phone call for the night, I'm sure that I will got scoldby my parents.

And don't know why, everytimes, my friends came, or my dad/mom calledme to do something, WHAT A COINCIDENCE. She will asked me to call her.This is because I'm not a good taker, I end up quarrel with her. Andfor my mom's side, I will always quarrel with my mom after I hang upthe phone. This makes me feel really tired... and scary... And 1st, Ihave to protect her, so that my mom's saying wont hurt my babe'sfeeling.

This is not all, there is still many others stories. This is just somepoint of view from my side, but when it is applied to her side, it willbe a total chaos. I have to think for her. Just like a SMS that I savedfor more than 14 months, it says that, our girlfriend would neverwrong. And this is actually true. No matter what, I have to care abouttheir feelings.

Ah Poh asked me that night, are you really love her? What would youfeel now? When she is not around? I replied him, I'm scare, I want totalk to her, but I don't know where to start, I don't wanna lost her,but I'm still mad for something...

It is a complete mess right now. Will this relationship affect mystudies? Ya, It will definitely affect my studies, I can see that rightnow. But I hope that I can overcome this, and be with her, A betterher, and Myself."

This happened after I have the 1st quarrel with her.

Below will be the next post on my second blog, it was the days when I still have her.

"I realized that I'm so childish. I thought we can be together,understandable and happily. But what I could see are totally opposite.

Today, 22, September, Sunday, 2.55pm, I called her, but felt un-satisfyat the end of the conversation. I was planning to have some light mealat 3.30pm with my dad outside, then I will continue to do research onmy design, then sketch out a comprehensive idea at 4pm. Unfortunately,she keep on talking and talking, and I can't hung up the phone, I canjust lie on the bed and listen to her voice.

My mom was warning me not to have too long conversation with her whenour conversation had started. But I lie to her when she asked me, is itmy mom who is talking? I just want her to talk happily, don't wanna lether feel guilty for talking too long. I know she will felt un-satisfytoo when she is happy talking to me and I will say, I have to go in asudden.

Tick tock tick tock, the time is running and it is 4pm already. I missa meal with my dad at 3.30pm, and I have to start doing my homeworkwith unhappy thoughts. I was really unhappy talking for too long,especially with a handphone and there is my parents around.

I hold my breath and went to my bedroom and called her, just to stay afar distance with my parent, JUST TO TALK TO HER. I'm not a person wholoves to talk on the phone actually, all of my freinds know that, Inever call. A simple SMS will be my reply to their requests orquestions.

And now, I'm sitting right here, moodless, and can't even think of anyideas for my design, my FUKING homework. This work should beinteresting and fun, but end up, everything is a FUKING mess.

I was thinking, how am I going to design when I'm not in the mood. Andstill, when I get back to my living after the call, I have to face thatbitch, my mom. It is totally frustrated to me.

GOD DAMN it, I have to do it at night, maybe until 10.30am. And I won't call her at night when my mom is out, MAYBE."

This will be my next post,

"After reading at my old post, I was thinking of breaking up with her. But I really love her, it is hard to be explained.

Talking bout, I'm childish at my previous post, I would like to updateit. What is childish actions that I'm doing right now, right in ourrelationship. 1st of all, I was talking with her, almost everynight,for 1 hour per day, per night. It will cost my health badly.Everytimes she said, I'm worry this, I'm worry that, It is just kinda anon sense to me, althought it is some sweet msg. But everytimes talkwith her without a headset, is it really that healthy? Should she worryfor my health? Maybe she have, but I does not really see it.

When she asked me to call her, I will fear for it, coz I will neverknow when can I hung up the phone call when I really needed to. After Ido that, she will feel down instantly, sounds very sad and unhappy tothat.

The second thing, it affects my studies. I'm really tired of itsometimes. Coz whenever talk to her on the phone or MSN, I have to bereally careful what I said. If she say yes, I will not say not. Andthen, I will felt really uncomfortable and angry, but I just can't showthe anger to her, just to make sure she is happy for the conversation.Maybe she is not that happy with that? I don't know.

There is many things that hide behind our mind, but we are hiding fromour love ones, don't want them to get hurt, don't want them to getunhappy. That's all. "

Next~

"I'm so freaking scare right now! I love my babe so much, but I stillhave work to do! I don't know how to explain to her, "I HAVE WORK TODO!!!"

For an example, yesterday night, Tuesday, November 24, 9.00pm, I called her.

And why I called? Because I want her to be happy. Actually, I can justignore and start doing my work, I'm that kind of person. I alreadyknow, the phone call will cost my time, and it is more than 1 hour...

I found out that, I can't do anything at midnight, I'm so damn angryfor myself for acting so FUKING childish. I don't know how to handlethings on myself, only waste of my FUKING time, and keep on blamingmyself for that.

I skipped typo (TUTORIAL) class at last. I slept at 3.45am today. Why?Because of my assignments? nah... I can't even think of any simpleidea, I was too tired. I was just lying on my sofa, waiting, hoping herto SMS me when she woke up.

And she did. Finally, I can get ready for my sleep. But I scared thatshe was lonely, so i keep my eyes closed and SMS her, I was too damntired at the moment.

Back to my studies, It is getting worse... I never skip tutorialclasses for more than 5 times in a row. And I did in this semester.Especially I know my babe, no offense.

Wednesday, November 25, 6.45pm, my babe juz SMS-ed me, she asked me tocall her. But I really can't call her right now! I don't wanna gotscolded by my parents again! And the phone call will takes me a lot odtime and energy! I thought she will understand, but she don't. Im sofreaking PISS! I just ignore everything for tonight! Have my dinner, gofor YC session to reduce some tension."

Then, I have a break up with her on the second time, then the WORSE one, the third.

I wrote,

"I felt so sad about it. Wanna cry it out, BUT I JUST CANT!
I miss her so so so Much...I'm Really going to be crazy... Looks like someone is treating her better enuff. No no no,

Much much better! I scared that I will never see her again. I felt sobad... When thinks about her, I will get frudtrated easily..."

Actually, there is much much more to write, but when can I finish this?! It is too damn many to write!

No wonder people wants to have a daily journal, just to note everyday down...

~Gonna Update What I Really Want To Say, TODAY~

T-Shirt & Shoes Design Exhibition Day

2010-01-05T23:28:00.006+08:00

Today, I drive to college, again! And this time with Ah Lai Tumpang-ing my car!

Talking about today's Event,

Wow! Our T-Shirt & Shoes Design Exhibition is like a pasar malam!

I heard a guard asked,
Wah, kasut baru ke? Kamu pergi tu Sport Complex? Ada Discount sana?!

Funny thing~

Today, My shoes design was picked, and I can't take back my shoes... T.T Give back my $!

Other than that, our group, E-MORE's T-Shirt Design was picked too!

When I compare my shoes design to the whole course, what will the result be =.= Really want to know. And our tutors don't even give us any comments for our deisng... Sien!

Here is some photos~

~Someone Looks Funny In This Photo~

~Here Is My Shoes Design~

Damn tired for today,

facing bankruptcy problem,

lack of self esteem,

lazy,

and the MOST important is I Lost My The Chance!

Adui Adui Adui! Exam is coming already, what am I thinking?!

Ahaha! Still have lots of sketches to do!

~End of Today~

~Tomorrow Will Be A New Beginning!~

School Exhibition

2010-01-05T08:27:00.000+08:00

Nyek Nyek Nyek~ Our school is having a Exhibition, Specially for us, Design Students!

Gonna shoot photos today~ Hope So~!

Daily Updates~

2010-01-03T22:56:00.007+08:00

Yo~ Back to my daily things that I had done!

My Taylor Swift!

Kai Jian's work of my Spiderman~
Cool Pose!

Today I sketched a SPECIAL and INTERESTING portrait! It starts with "C"! But haven't finished yet!

Finally have the guts to sketch out!

Will be continue to that!

I found out that many people having a lot of MOODY post on their Facebook and blogs.
OMG! They Are Getting Me MOODY Along With Them Too! Shit~! >.<||

Back to same old days~ DotA DotA and DotA~

Finally, my 46 win streak DotA Matches in 2 weeks has finally ended... T.T
Sad~

Tuesday is going to have exhibition for our T-Shirt Design and Shoes Design! Cant wait!

New Year Eve

2009-12-31T00:56:00.001+08:00

Yo I'm back! Just back from badminton session of coz~

Finally I know... I can't even do a simple sport with this big tummy! 20 minutes strokes already can give me a heart attack!

Tomorrow have to attend Tamadun Asia's tutorial class... Sien! Got bar for this subject! Plz! hope there is no my name in second bar list! If not... I'm doomed...

Tomorrow is New Year Eve! I'm going for clubbing! Yo~ Whole gang is going to gathe there, sounds FUN!

Happy New Year guys!

Time Filling (part2)

2009-12-28T00:16:00.001+08:00

Half Way Done of My Sketching!

My dad said that my this sketch is bad... T.T
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Today play DotA until 2 of my DotA Net-friends leave my game =.=

No need to ask why~ XD

Time Filling

2009-12-27T11:37:00.000+08:00

I do sketching to fill up some of my time.
I still have 3 more Photography exercises to do! Tuesday is deadline!

My Incomplete Sketch.

Playing DIRT 2! (part 2)

2009-12-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

New Screenshot for DIRT 2!!!

Playing DIRT 2!

2009-12-25T22:32:00.002+08:00

Wanted to play this game, DIRT 2 long long time ago!

Because I got a 100kbps DL speed, so I got this game and it is awesome!

End of Basic Web Page Design Assignment, Here comes Christmas!

2009-12-24T02:34:00.002+08:00

Ahahaha! I finished my web page design Assignment! Yahuuu!

Yeah Yeah Yeah!!! {o0o} Web page design {o0o}

I'm getting Crazier and Crazier~!

Christmas Eve is here! Ahahaha! Lets celebrate! Steamboat Steamboat!!!

HoHoHo~ Merry Christmas!

Aiya, Christmas no present for my friends... Pai Seh orhh >.<

Say Out Loud! Jason Lim is Stupid!

2009-12-22T23:05:00.005+08:00

Argh! Back to English!

Walao eh! I don't know that and I can't understand that! There is only @@ in my mind!

And hor, I finally realized that I'm that STUPID! Stupid on something! ahahaha! Finally! I got it in mind!

Fucking assignment is punishing my mind now. Going to sleep soon!

Going to have Web page war tomorrow morning!! Charge to Victory~!

它是时候搬家了！

Steamboat "Assignment"! Wait me!

I'm coming for you!!!

过去和将来的到来！

2009-12-22T19:17:00.003+08:00

Assignment将到deadline，

Steamboat assignment将来临！

所有的将会过去！

珍惜的爱

2009-12-22T08:51:00.002+08:00

Assignment都还没做完，我就在这写了...

“摘不到的星星，总是最闪亮的，
溜掉的小鱼，总是最美丽的。
错过的电影，总是最好看的，
失去的情人，总是最懂你的。”

这世界上，每个人都有个想要寻找的人，

一但错过了，就在也不会回来。

如果爱上，就不要轻易说放弃。

闹架分离了，可能你后悔一阵子；

但是你放弃了，可能使你后悔一辈子。

经历过爱情的人生才是美好，

经不起考验的爱情是不深刻的。

美好的爱情使人生丰富，

经的起考验的爱情才是完美的。

爱你的和你爱的人不是随时可以出现，出现了就好好去珍惜。

在我心里大声喊吧！

2009-12-22T02:57:00.001+08:00

已经陵晨2.21分了。

不知不觉，这是我在短短时间里写了两个post。现在我就写出我的心里话。

忙完assignment一回到家后，我就向我平时一样，做我常做的事。

当我发现到时，十分的愤怒，我差点还把我的电话给丢开。
我发现，有些事情，不知道会比知道好。

有些事情，受到了伤害，也可能也是一种快乐。
当你受伤时，那，会有人来关心你，在乎你，
那时的开心会比你平时得来的开心还要快乐。

当你从受伤的心爬起来时，你才会知道你是多么的坚强，
和你身边支持你的人是多么的重要。

当然，我不是什么身边支持者，而是另有其人。
我超反感的叻！但这种反感倒令我感到放心。
我笑我自己，为什么要看到这反感的事才会感到开心，
而不是我自己去做那些反感的事，自己来开心呢？

我现在可想大声喊出我的心里话啊，
可是现在已经凌晨3点了，不好意识喊啊...
不但没礼貌喊出来，也没资格喊。

那没关系，我就在我心里大声喊吧！

“拜访”Trista家记2

2009-12-22T00:05:00.004+08:00

我回来了！写下一个short post来说说自己的今天。

现在已经晚上11.37分，我才到家！好累哦！等下我们一group还得做proposal啊！

哈哈！刚开我的Bit Comet,我的The Sims 3 + World Adventures已经download完了！

本来是要特地download这game来显示些东西，可是已经不用了，开心的玩就够了！

今天的我，就好像最近的我一样，没什么改变。
到了college,我就去找Meng Zai. 集合了后，我们就去TBR找Trista，喝杯水。
然后准备做Assignment，可是，我留了很重要的文件在家！
Trista只好载我回家拿...那时的Trista快要杀掉我了！

拿完所有东西后，我们三人就开始忙了。
首先，我们去了MCD吃午餐。说来可怕，一个星期2次叻！
过后，因为有点“小意外”，我得驾Trista的车，一快去她家做Assignment.

过后，Sharon也来了，那时的我们赶紧加油！

终于，我们完成了80%！所以，等下的我们必须完成另15%！
开心的是，今晚不用睡！赶完Assignment就看海派甜心！啊哈哈哈！

现在的我就得马上加油哦！

“钱”的反感

2009-12-21T08:44:00.003+08:00

达浪~达浪~达浪达浪达浪达浪达浪~~

哈哈！看太多海派甜心了!
星期六时，我一天就看到第六集了！
哈哈！那么得空？！因为我没做功课咯！

在这套戏里，陈宝珠的妈妈就是那么说，
“我当初就是嫁给你爸爸这个穷光蛋，就是看上他有志气！blablabla~”

所以说，钱是多么的重要啊~
就是那么的重要，也令我反感，但没办法啊，它就是那么的可爱...

当你没钱时，又要自做聪明，扮个有钱人的样子，会令人反感的。
说的倒也是，我看到了都感到讨厌。

记得我小时候，家里环境很好，要吃什么大餐听都没问题。
但现在就不同了，当你没钱时，人家就会用白鸽眼来看你。
家人也不例外。

被人看轻的感觉，真不好受。

是，现在的我就是个穷光蛋，那又怎样？
可能我是有那么的“自做聪明”，你可以那么的反感，我没关系。

发现到，电话里的RM9的credit,也就剩那么的RM0.03,
就在一天叻！挺厉害的！
我知道我知道，有些人比我跟厉害。
和你们比较，我就是10:100嘛...
别那样看我嘛...

所以说，现在的我们，必须好好读书，
以后一定要赚钱给家人，不要让他们委屈，被些人看不起。

赚钱又是另一件事，我们不可忽列到家人。
以后赚到钱了，你就可以“懒惰”一下，陪陪家人。
有一个幸福的家庭，那才是最快乐。

就好像我在英语的演讲时所说的，
“Money cannot buy happiness, but it can enchant our happiness.”

有些事，这样就是这样了，你还没改变，但人家已经改变了。
而且，人家还跑得比你远远的。
所以你也必须追上，不可以给别人看低。
是！不可以让人看轻你！

一个觉悟

2009-12-20T03:31:00.000+08:00

12月20日，凌晨1.59分

今天算是我们分手的第7天吧。

我从来都很不会说话，

所以，也不大敢在blog写些我们之间的东西。

而且，我的华语很烂！

记得我第一次认识她时，只是跟她说声，"harlo".

还没跟她在一起时，我们聊了很多，

我也傻傻的误会她，还劝她这个那个，

真是傻到要命了！

但是过了不久，

我们就在一起了。

我们之间也发生很多事，

有快乐，也有伤心的。

我和她，本来就是两个世界的人，

但她很特别。

虽然我不是认识她很久，

但她告诉了我很多的故事，很多甜美的故事，

是一些可以让我领悟，学习，和成长个感人故事。

我从她哪听了不少。

虽然我听了很多，但我冲来没有好好去学习。

还记得我们才认识不久，

就吵了起来，都是我不好，

没好好理她的感受。

从那天开始，我才能感觉到，

了解一个人是多么的重要。

但是，我到先再还是做不到。

我们也有第二次，和第三次的争吵。

有时候，我们还为了一点点小事而小吵了起来。

我每一次都警告我自己，

要这个，要那个，不可以这样，不可以那样，

可是到现在还是办不到。

说来好笑和可悲，现在的我，就好像烂泥一样，

爸妈说得对，我一点用处都没有，

只会炸机和发脾气。

根本所有美好幸福的东西，

都放在我已眼前，

就好像拥有她时一样，

但没有好好珍惜。

到失去了，才深深的后悔。

更好笑的是，我自己说了多少次后悔，

我的手指也数不清。

当我真的后悔这样做，一时的冲动，都已经来不及了，

来不及的阻止我对她一次又一次的伤害。

就好像现在，当她需要人去关心，

爱护她，和保护她时，我却做不到。

联络不到她的感觉，真的好难受。

在19日的下午，有了机会和她联络，
但我浪费了，还说了一些不该说的话，
她没说出来，但我知道她对那很反感。

不知道她现在发生了什么事，又不能替她分担，

真的比分手还要难受。

如果我说我难过，她肯定会比我难过100百倍吧。

不管发生什么事都好，我应该要让她开心，

而不是在他面前喊救命。

如果我说辛苦，那她不是要更辛苦？

如果我担心我的自己，他不是会比我更担心？

我还在自暴自弃，真搞不懂我自己，

不懂我几时才会长大和懂事。

现在已经凌晨3.30了，也写了一小时半的post，
那算了了什么？

有些人会说，那么夜了还不睡，
有功课不做。

如果我不说出来，我睡不早，
我根本就是无力。

还有很多很多的心事还埋在心里，
还没说出来。

但我想，说出来，真的会舒服点吗？
一些不开心的事，一些错事，
说了但没去改，也都是一样。

我现在才觉悟到，会不会太迟呢？

17 December, 2009, Feel Really Tired Today

2009-12-17T22:37:00.003+08:00

17 December, 2009, Feel really tired today.

I went to college at 8.45am by bus today. Feel kinda uncomfortable for taking bus to college anymore. I felt kinda weird while sitting around the strangers, felt so lonely.

And now, I'm getting used to drive to college. I know it is not many time that I drive there, only 5 times. 20 minutes top, I can reach my destination, comfortable and fast. I only have to focus on the road and drive carefully, don't have to think much. Of coz, we have to drive safe on the road!

And now, the longest driving history of my life is to Putrajaya!

Today, Trista, Sharon, Meng Zai and I went to Time Square to buy plain T-shirts and T-shirt printing paper for our assignment. It was a tired journey for me, coz of my leg, it started to pain again, and it is even worse this time. I still can feel the pain right now. After the "shopping", we went back to college, but we decided to ponteng English class, again... We are really sleepy and tired...

When I reached Chow Kit, I almost got bang by a car... Don't know why, I didnt see that car coming, maybe I was thinking of something else... After a 2 minutes walk, it started to rain. So, I have to walk to bus stop in the rain and stand in the rain for waiting the bus. It was really cold out there. And I dropped something important, but I managed to pick it back up on the road.

When I got on the bus, I still have to stand on the bus, and my leg hurts, I barely stand properly on that time.

I reached home at 7.30pm.

DotA at 9.00pm, End game at 10pm (lose)

Sleeps at 11.30pm later.

Goodnight, as always does.

一个早上

2009-12-17T08:16:00.003+08:00

刚和爸爸去咖啡店吃完早餐回来。
回来后就马上写着一个post了。

今天早上，
把nasi lemak当成早餐的习惯又回来了。
不知道为什么，我刚才很想吃。

当我去买nasi lemak时，
我在那走廊上，
走了走，
让我想起了，
叫她起床的电话，
还真是... ...

当然，
我写部落格的习惯也回来了！

Trip to Putrajaya

2009-12-16T21:46:00.007+08:00

Here is some photos that I picked from the trip to Putrajaya with friends.

On The Bridge

Under The Bridge, using AUTO White Balance

Night View of Building

(crazy spotlights!)

Night View of Buildings

The Path We Walked Further From The Bridge

Mud... aiks...

BIG Foot~!

View

We continue to move and and found this spot.

Tons of Spotlights shooting on top and under the building!

(mahalnya~)

Perbadanan Putrajaya's view

View under It!~ It is tall and large!

View of The Inside, Tons of TONS of Spotlights!

q(~$.$~)p

~Leng Zai & Leng Lui~

And yet, we still have a lot of photos to capture for Photography Exercises and Assignment 2~

The Putra Jaya photoshot's Trip and Others

2009-12-16T05:41:00.002+08:00

Now I'm online at Fei's home! So quiet here! creepy~

Just back from Putra Jaya! Fei and me drive to Putra Jaya~ Total of 8 people in this trip! Tired of driving... Sucks that I can't drive my car fast enuff due to performance of my old car... We reached Putra Jaya at 12am.

Took some photos with tripod on. Bad that I dont have much nice photos... Will upload some picture soon enuff.

When the clock turned to 4.45am++, we already "fly" back to Wangsa Maju and have our "breakfast" at BRJ. We finished our breakfast at 5am++

And now, I'm ended up sitting infront of Fei's PC, ready for DotA soon.

And i Just logged into my Facebook, and I saw Poh Poh have a new relationship status! Fu Yoh~ Poh Poh! Great JOB! Good Luck to you!

While writing on my blog, there is a lot of things come in mind. But they are unessasary thoughts.

Should I go to sleep or DotA? But I can't sleep at all! Nevermind, play DotA to get high for awhile, no need tro think so much.

These few days, I just play DotA and other offline games only. I'm taking them as my drug, AGAIN!

Nvermind Nevermind! There will be better soon.

The Days of Last Week and YESTERDAY

2009-12-15T08:37:00.007+08:00

Maybe it is just a revenge or something else,

but, I don't mind.

I will just take it as paying my debt.

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My internet connection is having a bit problem lately. I can't even DL anything or play DotA due to internet connection error. It makes me frustrated!But yesterday night, I found out the problem... Actually, the problem come from my modem... Not streamyx sucks, BUT IT IS MY MODEM!

Nevermind~

My internet connection speed for these days. I'm using RM88 pakage with 1mbps broadband.

Good Connection though!

Downloading Test Speed from Rapidshare and with Bit Comet.

It download queit fast even without port forward!

Satisfied!

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Yesterday, Sharon, Meng Zai and me went to Trista's house to do our T-shirt design. Discuss and do some accessories thingy"s". We didn't complete anything much, AT LEAST, we know what to do next!

And I forgot to pay my resit fee... I'm so dead!

Before & After

2009-12-13T00:14:00.004+08:00

Before 60 days

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After The 60 Days

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zZzZz~ Sleepy...

It is 12.16am already~

This blog will be under "maintanence" after 12.17am,

Will be back SOON, Enuff!

2009-12-09T02:45:00.001+08:00

What is in my mind now?
_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-
---Questions to myself---

I was thinking, what am I doing right now? Uploading old photos? YES!
Am I doing my assignment? NO! coz I'm tired of it...
Streamyx sucks?! YES! Lately, it sucks for 2 days on me!
Am I hungry? YA! I want to eat Maggi... ==
There are many LOVE on my table? YA! They are in a mess, in my wallet too!
Still thirst for DotA? ERM... MAYBE... @@!!
I need $? ARE YOU NEEDED? ME TOO!!!

Lack of confidence on myself? A VERY VERY "YA"!....
I hate my assignment? NOT REALLY... Kinda like them too!

I'm I confuse on something? NOT SURE...
Do I look sleepy now? YES...
Main point, am I lazy?! UNDERSTOOD, YES! I AM!

~~BORING~~

26, Nov, 8.20PM

2009-11-26T20:16:00.003+08:00

Feel damn dizzy today.

I had headache this whole afternoon. It get worse after the movie, New Moon.

Stomach not healthy as usual.

And my tongue hurts for 3 days already!
Cancel my trip to Port Dickson for tomorrow.

I got model"s" liao! I have to be professional photographer tomorrow!

Live as usual.

F

2009-11-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

-p=.=q-{eMo}-p~.~q-

F...Not in the mood...

******睡觉前，贴高枕头想想******

I'm Scare...

2009-11-14T00:23:00.002+08:00

What Can I do? I'm Scare...

The Way It Was to Be, TRAVEL BY BUS

2009-11-12T23:22:00.005+08:00

Is 11.03am now, and I'm still haven't prepare anything for my English presentation.

Today our class ends up at 7.09pm! I just miss a bus... So, I have wait for 15 minutes for another bus. When I stepped in the bus, I was standing, and I think for myself, actually, I quiet enjoy travel by bus, especially when traveling back home from college.

I can have my time in the bus, no need to worry bout anything. In bus, I can SMS and listen to my songs, quiet enjoying actually. I love to find a spot that have air con on the top, it is cool!

In the bus, you can see those cow workers, aunties, students and other travel by bus, and you can feel the environment. It is kinda special to see the daily life in the city. You can see their faces, their emotion, see what they are doing, what they are eating =.= You can taste the air too, although it is not healthy =.=

When it is raining, I can see people rushing into the buses, lining up to get on the buses without an umbrella... I'm one of them =.= Some of them will take cover under a bus stop or beside the shops. When I entered the bus, I could see thier faces, they looks tired and hate for the rain that is keeping them uncomfortable. Sometimes, it is kinda annoying for me too...

As can see, we have a very complicated life in city, the happiness that we get in the city is totally different than the happiness in country side.

Just like dating, in city, most people would love a romantic candle light dinner in restaurant, or even at home. A midnight movie would be nice for the people in city.

But for the people in the country side, their life is a lot simple. They didn't need expensive things to keep themselves happy, just be with their love one, or even spent a night together at the green field, or even a small hill.

Although travel by bus is not as comfortable as travel by own car or parent's car. But I can taste the feel of taking bus in the public. So, it makes the feel different.

And of coz, some people would say, he is crazy, he is out of his mind, prefer taking bus by hisselves rather than by car.

And of coz, I also love to travel back home by car!

No matter what, this is the way for my life~ Can't denied it.

11 Nov, 07.22PM

2009-11-11T19:23:00.000+08:00

I am so unlucky today...
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Cross that!

Today, babe is going to sleep at 9pm??! haha!
Can her? Hope she can get some rest and prepare for her revision.
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These are some photos that I had taken at KLCC. Love them very much.

The view near my house.

Hope I could take more photos. Together with babe would be nice! XD

2009-11-11T02:42:00.001+08:00

I must have another blog for myself.

Some of My Old Sketches

2009-11-08T00:42:00.010+08:00

My Jackie Chan Adventures metal box! Actually is a box for J.C's trading card game...

But I used it for storing my old sketches...

When I looked back the old sektches, I felt embarrassing...

Some of these sketches is sketched in secondary school, Form 4 and Form 5.

The Mess!!! /|\

Gundam 00 series's Virtue Gundam!!

One of my Fav Gundam! Is a portrait of it head!

Roar!!! World of Warcraft's orc!

Cabal Online~ If I'm not mistaken~

Sasuke!!!

What is this called?? @@

Ultimate Blue-Eyes White Dragon!!

This is sketched when I was in primary school! Still in good condition!

Harvest Moon! Cute!

I lost the sketches of Mun Yi and Bi Hui together with a VICTORY pose. Haih...

And my Naruto sketch too...

Luckly, I took some snapshots of them...

Which one is Mun Yi?? @@

Naruto~

2009-11-07T16:54:00.001+08:00

I am a boring guy!!!

Photo Taking Trip @ Batu Cave

2009-11-06T09:35:00.009+08:00

I finally realized that I already took 220 photos with my Canon 1000D in 3 days... It used up 3.39gb... Not that heavy than I aspected.

Here is some RESIZED photos.

Big and tall statue!

We are ready to climb!

The view from the bottom to the top.

Bananas~

Here we climb!

It is not a tiring thing to be done, it is easy to climb!

Snap~ snap~

Ah Poh and Cecilia tag along with us, and Poh Poh fetched me home too~ XD nice~

Reached to the top.

We used around 15 minutes to 18 minutes to reached to the top. Kinda fun actually.

The view of Batu Cave Inside.

Ah Fei is having his time.

Love it!

Take me! Take me!

Rooster =.=

Here's another The Climb,

higher! HIGHER!

The end.

05 Nov, 39.54AM, The Solution And The Matter of Time

2009-11-05T09:55:00.006+08:00

It is 9.50am now. I slept at 4am in this morning...

So, I had decided to skip my tutorial class when I was in half asleep.

Before I sleep, I think a lot... But most of it, I already forgot now...

There is always many of solution out there, and is the matter of time only.

And Now, I'm asking myself,

What should I do?

05 Nov, 3.09AM I'm Tired!

2009-11-05T03:10:00.000+08:00

I'm so freaking tired! I want to sleep!

How can I focus on tomorrow's class for Tamadun Islam dan Asia! DAMN!

And today,
I found out that, I didn't know how to appreciate something precious.

My Babe's Sweet Voice

2009-11-04T08:28:00.004+08:00

Just had a short conversation with my babe,
she is so CUTE! Her voice is so so SO SWEET!

I still can remember her sweet voice now.
She makes me wanting to post something on my blog, it is just to remind me her sweet sweet voice!

Today will be a tiring day for my babe, take care good of yourself, OK?

Remember to take your meal"S",
drink more water,
no more maggi,
less coffee, OK?????

My babe is the best!

+U+U!

In the darkness, the sky turns blue ( end of soapa soapa )

2009-11-04T00:13:00.005+08:00

We had our presentation of Soapa soapa today. I am totally suck on presentation! Must I look at the mirror or myself and start practicing my speech??... Boring~~ But I don't have much choice... right??...

My Soap Bar~

Actually, I done a new 1, better quality of paper only... Nothing much improvement...

The process of my work... ( commented, not nice )

Full view of my design~

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Today's rain kinda heavy orh... And the sky are dark too... Feel kinda scary... It also makes me feel lost.

But in my heart,
the darkness turns into brightness.
and the brightness guide me to a better path, feel warm.

A promise is a promise,

As always. ❤

My "1st" camera! + The deadline of Soapa Soapa x.x

2009-11-02T23:17:00.001+08:00

Just a short post for today.

I just got my Canon 1000D camera this morning.

My babe and I are so busy for today... She keep on screaming for death... I know... Sejarah SUK!

And I rush my assignment - SOAPA SOAPA! for the whole day too. I left my art paper for the print at Fei's beg... Damn... I can't get these paper around my place... Sien... So.... I end up using a thick and rough paper... It make my print a lot darker... OMFG! Don't want to mention it anymore...

dim xun hou leh... I scare I got low marks for this assignment and I will got nothing... T.T

~my soap box~

So god damn messy for my working place... I'm forced to work on the floor... not the desk...

Hope that I could have a phone call with my babe... Miss her so much...

31 Oct, 11.30PM

2009-10-31T23:30:00.001+08:00

Ohhh, almost forgot,

Sry. For what I did, they were wrong.

I should be more considerate,
be a trustful person,
be a caring person.

And to be a better me.

31 Oct, 11.13PM

2009-10-31T23:14:00.004+08:00

What is in my my?
Assignments come 1st.

And of coz, my babe too~

Today,
I'm exhausted on learning, but not exhausted on doing the assignment.

Today,
I miss my babe so much, didn't chat much, but at least, we had our 2 hours conversation on the phone.

Now,
I'm tired, and I'm goin to sleep now, GOOD NIGHT BABE, SLEEP "as early as possible", OK?

Love ya~

30 Oct, 11.28PM

2009-10-30T23:28:00.005+08:00

30 Oct, 11.28PM_________________________
_______________________________________

I'M SUCH AN IDIOT.

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The 4th Day at Jian's House

2009-10-23T01:21:00.000+08:00

This room is freaking cold, really freeze me out. I stayed at Jian's house for 4 days, I'm decided to pack up all of my things and go home tomorrow... Gonna miss some chances to make some phone call with my Charlene...

Heard tat she is going to buy a web cam and have a video call with me! NICE! Is time to clean up my "storeroom" and move back my PC in there. Hope tat my dad is going to place a aircond in tat room. Hope that there is some space for me to place my own bed in there too....

We have to buy a DSLR camera... It cost us RM2245! It is so freaking "CHEAP"! But this is the cheapest price in the market already...

And I juz got 2 C- for my Introduction to Art and Hubungan Etnik. Have to resit both papers! It suks! Have to pay RM160 for the resit! Im so so so lazy.... My wallet is going broke soon.... OMG...

For today's classes, I fell asleep for every class... Im so damn tired... I slept at TTG lecture class for almost 1 hour +....

Hope tat it wont happen again.... Got to rest now. Sleep well, Charlene❤, Nite.

of coz, Good Night to all my frens too! @@

The Moment that I Miss You

2009-10-21T21:00:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Finally can back to Jian's house and Online! He is not at home! Feel kinda bored... Specially without my Leng Leng.

And now, I can't even sign into my MSN, the balance for my handphone is RM0.00 I spend my last cent for sending msg to her, weather she recieve it or not, I don't know, coz my handphone wrote, send failed. This kind of "send failed" thingy happens very often. And I juz recieve her msg! Miss her so much!

Bout wat i learn from college today is webpage design. Writing the codes for a web is freaking me up! And we are juz learning bout the basics now! and it is already so complicated! Still have assignments to be done, I must do well, juz as I promised.

And she is so busy and tired, she have to rush everyday for her work and the others... Wish I could give her more supports, or a SMS to cheer her up will do. Shame that I had out of credit and my battery for my handphone is dead...

Everyone is asking me the same old question, but it does'nt matter, I can take it.

❤ you, Charlene.

+U

2009-10-18T21:47:00.006+08:00

haih... Today, I have to rest earlier... Really tired... And hope she is resting now... is she?? ==

Starting from now on, I have to grow up already... I know I know! Im stupid and lazy and... er... too damn many till I feel pai seh to say them out...

Still the same old sentence, " Should play less of DotA, this will really cost me ",
specially for my studies...

(When was the 1st time that I said DotA less? ==)

Hope that I will show some improvement in myself. IMPROVE MYSELF!

+U!+U!+U!+U!+U! You too~
~My friends too~

Im kinda Lost...

2009-10-16T09:12:00.004+08:00

Now... Im sitting in front of MU's PC again... =.= Im waiting for my 10am class to come.

I had done a lot of mistakes lately.... And Im already scared out of it.

I dont know what to do, and dont know how to solve my problem.

To some of my frens, Im being so EMO for writing this kind of thing, It is already been a long time that I didnt write this kind of post. But I felt like I am wanting to write this.

And now, I dont know how to face the reality anymore... Of coz, this is juz my opinion.

The Full Stop

2009-10-15T09:03:00.005+08:00

O.o Now Im in CC writing on this post.

There is a lot of things happened around me. All of them are not going very well. Bad things happened rapidly.

Someone will think of a cruel person I am, even my friend also said that... But I am. ==

Every sentences have a Full stop. " . " But there will still a continue story behind the Full stop. And it will go on and go on. It is very dependable, depends on how you write the storyline behind it. And you can write a wonderful story bout urself.

And,

Good things never die.

Semester 2 is HERE! + My Motivation!

2009-10-10T23:52:00.004+08:00

ahahaha! Sem 2 is here! I stopped blogging for sometimes now...

Im still me~ And things happened around me, of coz there are sweet and sad!

I not gonna talk much bout that, Im gonna keep to myself, and of coz... ~you know...~

I never chat by using chinese b4, and now, Im using chinese in my conversation in MSN and SMS! Unbelievable.... Im totally suck with using Chinese to SMS!

I will keep in phase!

WHAT A MOTIVATION.....

My sketch, SNSD, Taeyeon

2009-10-04T14:41:00.006+08:00

My 3rd work.

The photo still looks a bit different compare to my original sketch...

SNSD, Taeyeon, {Tell Me Your Wish}

My sketch, SNSD,Tifanny

2009-10-01T13:09:00.006+08:00

Phew... I juz fiished my sketch...

Coz of yesterday of out going at Cheras Pasar Malam... I can't finish my skrch... And I woke up at 7am to continue my sketch... Maybe I can't complete my 3rd sketch, Taeyeon liao... ADUI!

My HAND!

My 2nd sketch~

SNSD - Tiffany

Maybe after my tea time, I will do the sketching...

But, I wont forget to do my DotA "Homework"!

My Sketch, SNSD, Jessica

2009-09-29T22:33:00.008+08:00

Yey! Im back! This is my whole day work!

Of coz, not 24 hours of work, I still have to do some "homework" for my DotA, and of coz, I have to watch Bleach!

This is my sketch for today!

This is juz a Incomplete sketch!

After doing some touch up for my sketch, and my handphone RANG~ Jian called!

Oi! Yam Cha lor!

Syok! That is wat I want! Wahaha!

My 90%! \|/

SNSD - Jessica

I still have finish my previous sketches though... Nevermind, I still have plenty of time for doing it~

And for the next day~! I will sketch Taeyeon!

Pity that I juz have this Small Space for me to do the sketching.... Really uncomfortable...

JOM YAM CHA!

I'm a 废才！

2009-09-24T18:33:00.004+08:00

Walao eh... We said it very commonly, the time flow very fast... My Sem 2 is goin to start soon... And the moon cake festival is coming!

Last week, I spent most of my time on my PC games, did not do anything extra for my studies also. Feel kinda guilty... But I'm too lazy to start doing my own thing... I never get my job done seriously... Always a lazy and a not responsible person...

Im such a dick head! And I sucks!

Back to my health, my tummy is getting bigger... tat means im live in a good life... very "hang fok"~which is good...

But Now... I have a problem....

My left leg have a serious injury... I already went to see tit dar 2 times d.. still feel the pain on my leg... This pain already make me uncomfortable for 1 month and a +... I think it is cause by the activities in the gym class... Nevermind... will get it fixed soon... juz have to talk about $ again.

And to get me serious, I have to start moving my ass, start my practice on my illustration and think of something "creative" to motivate myself~

Will update my post soon... ( looks like I did not update for my previous post... Whateverr~ )

Started my Sketch

2009-09-14T12:14:00.007+08:00

Tomoro is my last exam for this sem... But I still havent do a single revision... But I will do my revision after I have my hair cut.

And wat I had done for this few days? The lazy me juz played games and do sketching only...

This is where I do my sketching... It is really uncomfortable for doing it at this small place...

(My sketching place, A.K.A my messy desktop and my desktop...)

This is the part of the picture. It is already zoomed in.

(The picture look different from wat I sketched...)

My sketch. Taeyeon's head is a bit smaller... Cant erase her and sketch again coz the paper is starting to koyak liao.

..Before>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>After 5 minutes....

Now, Im practising speed sketching... Coz I really sketch very slow... Still Improving...

Looks a lot better with the solo~

Will update for this post soon... I must go for revision already...

THERE IS NO TIME TO LOSE!

My Wallpaper!

2009-09-09T23:51:00.003+08:00

Wah... time flow so so so fast...

the day of 9/9/2009 is going end liao... haih... Didn't do anything GOOD these days...

Tomoro still have to !@#$%^&* ( dont mention it... )

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Now, Im quiet enjoying staring at my desktop... @@

Album Art, Gee - Girls' Generation

The meaning of their songs is not tat meanful... But their dances are...
SEXY & CUTE!

3 songs that I like the most in their albums are,
-Gee
-Tell Me Your Wish
-Kissing You

Thanks to Maxwell (who is so damn X.X ) for the sharing~

The 1st Day of Exam in TARC + My work

2009-09-03T18:12:00.004+08:00

Today is my 1st time to have exam in exam hall in TARC...

Im going to fail my English... I dont have enuff time to write my essay... Spent too much time on doing the section 3... Darn it...

And this Saturday is our H.E exam... the notes for this F subject is damn many... and is all WORDS... How am I going to focus?

My mind is juz like FREAKING MESSY now!

DAMN! Not going to talk bout EXAM for NOW!

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And below are my Pn. Nik assignment, Creative Character.

I was wondering... The title is given as Creative Character"*" Not Character"s"

But they have 3 characters in their final work... No idea... @@

My tiger~

I juz simply place my work on the floor...

There are total of 6 pages for this assignment... This assignment is killing me and I manage to finished it at 3am on the day of the DEADLINE... And I have to go to the shop to do the binding thing...

The Spell Caster is here!

The Final work... The colour looks sucks to me... Specially with the RED.

And now, Im going to sketch out all of my friend's potrait in 1 piece of drawing paper! This is a project for my own...

And the Meng Zai de sketching is on the way!

So many of Days of Deadline + Koko Day

2009-08-25T16:48:00.012+08:00

Not going to talk much bout my weeks.

Past few weeks, we are busying on our final assignments.

The Chow's assignment, The Mood board.

My working place

The Final Work

We got 84% for our group assignment.... Still havent reach our target... YET...

Due to my laziness, I do a lot of "SHORTCUT" works. Seriously, some part only fu yan only... 没眼看...

Group photo

Others group's work and ours

Their works are more interesting than our....
But I think, they can do a lot better... ( my opinion )

After pass the deadline of Chow's Assignment, we still have to go for graffiti that is needed to draw on a 3m x 1.5m canvas.

This assignment really piss we all off. We start our work at 12pm to 5am, the day of the deadline. We spend ONLY 10 hours in one day to finish our graffiti, there is some break during the time.

Our 2nd time of work on a RM51 canvas

We did some mistake on our 1st canvas, so we have to redo the whole thing again.

We are so damn tired of doing this farking thing non-stop.
GOD DAMN last minutes work.

We have a 4 hours of sleep, quiet satisfied for my sleep at Shaun house... too damn tired on that day and fell asleep easily... and sleep like never sleep before...

The so called Graffiti Presentation day.

Our final work...

SUCK to be me for having this piece of... We should do it better...

This is our EMO on D Day.

Felt so so SO~

After D Day, we have our lunch at KFC.

We feel ALIVE! when drinking our Pepsi at that time. We can only say, SONG!
Too tired and hungry... so there is no photos there.

I have to rush for my gym 2 class and my aerobatic dance after my lunch.

Really stress on that day. Some of my frens still can enjoy their LIFE after passed up their final assignment. Full of joy...

And me? While waiting my mom to fetch me home from 6.30pm to 7.30pm... it is a DAMN heavy rain! I have to take out umbrealla while sitting at the bus stop.

And the worse thing is... I fall down infront of GIRLS with all my things with me when getting on the car. So damn F.

And Saturday is our Koko Day. Although is tired, but feel kinda fun for the activities, special on the stage 4. We manage to use only 2 minutes to get down and climb back up at the cliff like thingy at between college hall and the football field... And all of our activities are held after the rain! Muddy...~..~

And our aerobatic dance.... COOOOL~!

THE VIEW from the TOP

Our group 522 won the 1st pace on that day.

The food from our hamper. And I got these~ XD Sweeeeet~

Im so lucky to have a good teamates and we have THE BEST team spirit.

And today I juz PUT AEROPLANE for the badminton session.. Due to my late sleep coz of playing HoN... I woke up late....

Heroes of Newerth!!!

What The FUN is that! Look! Is Faceless Void's Ultimate! COOOL! FV is renamed to Cronos.

And now, I continue for my HoN 1st, then do revision laterrr.... if I CAN.

Should I smile?

2009-08-13T15:59:00.013+08:00

It is a long time that I didn't update my blog again. Although everyone had celebrate for my birthday, but still I wont post up anything bout it.Due to my current situation, does not feel like posting it.

The final exam is coming too and I juz skipped my H.E class. All assignments are juz like a time bomb.... tick tock tick tock and BOOM! Im dead! My current post won't be any picture, so it will looks kinda bored... But still, I will write everything down bout what I am thinking now.

I wake up at 6.20am today and I have a English class at 9.30am. I already expected that most of my friends won't be going to attend the class later. And in this early morning, I was wondering every sec, what should I do now? should i go to English class? I juz stared at my LCD monitor, staring at my own blog.

And then. a story that haven't been fully discovered juz pop out from my mind. Ei, I can search for more interesting stories wor... Maybe I should know more about that interesting stories... And I have to find prove for that stories too! And then, I open another new web browser and start search for stories.

Not for long, and it is not hard to find, i finally find that story! It is totally related to my own made up story! and it is matched! After I read those stories, I was like, OMG, What the hell is this?! What the FUN?! Is it true? Is it Fairy tales telling competition? Bedtime story? Love Story?

The story, is juz like a sharp knife has stab into ur heart, and you feel kinda cold, and dont know what to do or who you should talk to.... Im totally stunned.... by those stories.... And the interesting part is, it has pictures! Inside the picture, there is something that I call it a TRADEMARK. Damn GOOD, got tat kind of mood, that kind of feel. In the moment, I also feel kinda funny, suddenly laugh out loud! I feel so stupid for what had happened to me for the past few months....

While on the way to college by bus, I was chatting with Ah Lai with sending SMS. After a bit of so called chit chat, I cried. This is the 1st time I feel and cry... But lucky no people saw me ==||

And today, coz of finding those stories, I miss my bus, AGAIN! WTFUN?! So, I took taxi. WHen I got in, RM3 was charged.... And then, the meter is Beeping, up FAST! 10 cent per 5 secs! OMG! When the meter is beeping... It really hurts me... + after I saw the stories juz now... Even worse... God DAMN! Anyway.... Rm7.20 brings me to Metro Prima Jusco! RM7.20!

And on my way back home, my mom cant fetch me at Kepong. So? What can I do? I TAKE TAXI AGAIN! And that taxi driver is using the new meter too! Syok! RM8 gone again.

So, today, I officially anounce, I spend Rm20.20 to attend a English class! Bravo! Im so dump!

Ish... What lar... Forgot bout the money liao....

And for the stories, there is the truth what.... You juz have to believe it.
Live for another better day!

And the most important,
KEEP ON SMILING! Be HAPPY! That is the cure for ALL THINGS!

2009-08-11T01:35:00.004+08:00

Assignment + Assignment + Assignment + Assignment+ Assignment = 5 Assignments

1 of the assignment is already reach the deadline, today. And the gud news is, it is landed on my birthday.

Jian juz told me, "You can go to Chow Kit to do something officially liao, coz you are already 18."

Now I damn blur, don't know what to do really... Maybe I will continue my sleep now...

And this is my Mood Bar \|/
||>>Worse|(1), 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9|Great!<<||

The process of mighty HAND

2009-08-05T18:46:00.020+08:00

Assignment, assignment = AssignmentS

No time to blog also. Maybe I had, but I will go for DotA or any games already...

So, the story starts here.

I chose to make a figure hand with wire, coz it is "easy". Remembered the 1st day, some guy said, "It looks simple leh..."

But still, all of us agree to make this hand, and we have to passup our work after 2 weeks.

My 1st sketch is not the same as the final work at all. Our Kenny gave us a "finger design" idea. So, it makes our final work look better.

But 1st, we have to do the base for our hand.

looks a bit wider than the final

And next, is the sausage fingers~ Fei and Jeff finished them at my house.

Wire Sausages!

It looks easy to do, but it is really hard to do this fingers with using this thick of wires.

Testing with them ( Jeff )

Next, try to balance the HAND on the board.

It looks not the same as the final also...

We continue the work at fei's house on the other day.

The Hand-tel Inside.

After we make sure of the HAND pose, we do the mummy thingy.

This is how we do our work.

Kinda hard to bind the finger thingy... And still, we have to do the texture for the fingers thing.

This is our un-colour HAND.

And then, we have to do the terrain for the base...~

We have to reduce to size for the wooden board coz it is not A1 size... so damn annoying....

Im the mighty hand! Fear ME!

After finished the figure, I have to take the HAND home and colour it.

Im using my hand as brush too...

"Dirty handed"

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The Day We Hand In The Asignment.

Final work \|/

This shows that how much I love the HAND...

All hail to the MIGHTY HAND!

Group photo..................

Mr Chow and us!

All of the groups take photo with Mr Chow... except for Mun Yi group.

Although their marks aren't that satisfying, but they finished their group assignment with only in 2 day. If they can put much effort on it, sure it will be better regarding to their skills.

So, work hard for them next 4 assignments ba!

The end.

"Upgrape" myself...

2009-08-01T22:07:00.002+08:00

Felt so bad for posting this thingy... @@

2009-07-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

Will update soon to this post...

The Fallen

2009-07-27T06:40:00.001+08:00

I'm DEAD!

2009-07-24T06:39:00.003+08:00

Oh yEahh! Today my mom want to fetch me to Titiwangsa bus station!

YES! I can have my breakfast with my dad again! It is not as nice as fetching me to the front gate of TARC, but at least, I no need to hurry for getting to school as usual!

Today is our Introduction to Illustration mid term test... Feel kinda scare because I prepare nothing.... and It is 6.31am in the morning and I do not do my revision... And for yesterday still go yam cha with Poh Poh and Jian... It cost me RM3.80 for my yam cha session...

And for my school thingy...
Im the last group who do the presentation for H.E class... I got a lot of tension for it... Specially when I am watching other groups presenting... Tension is added to me...

Still havent finish my I.t.Illustration's assignment 2... Still in progress... And I'm lazy...

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Not feeling very well these days... Although I look the same at school.... for sometimes.... But I'm different for what I look like....

As I can see... "Everybody is saying... Is the past, we should forget It..." But they really do forget It?

Sometimes, I still imagine what I look like when I'm doing my English oral test with Kenny and Jeff... And still thinking about what I did for past few months... Did I do something wrong bout It? Did I THIS.... Did I THAT... And how much time that I wasted?!

YES! I DID! I DID EVERYTHING WRONGLY! I WASTE A LOT OF MOTHER FUCKING TIME!

IM SO SO SO FUCKING PISS OFF!

May God Bless Me...

2009-07-22T23:51:00.003+08:00

Although I still have alot of work to do, and need to prepare for my next presentation.. but still... I feel boring... Does not feel like start doing my work now...

So.. I juz finished playing the quiz on Facebook. They are sent by my frens for very very long ago... Speechless for wat the results are... Now... Mymind is so so so DAMN FUCKING blur... and FUCKING TIRED!

Still the same old idea to calm myself down... " don't think... Rest... "

2009-07-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

OMFG... Really can't imagine it...

I can't stop thinking bout it!

These sour memories are torturing me!

When thinking bout something that I done for last few months ago, I feel kinda funny and shame for myself. I feel uncomfortable when people singing beside me, this let me think bout the singing competition in 2008. This really freak me out. That is why I don't feel like goin to sing K anymore...

And whenever I saw a birthday cake, it makes me feel weird and cold. Sometimes, I will laugh at myself, why am I doing this? Or how stupid I am?

There is a lots of things happen on me for last few months, or I could say, last year... Specially at the end of 2008 to early 2009.

Somethings are can't be forgotten and somethings are memorable. Maybe I should try to look at them at the different direction, in another point of view. Maybe this will help me out.

But when I will start doing it? I feel like, got a big space in my mind, sometimes it goes blank, can't think of anything, specially in some other situation. It makes me feel kinda nervous sometimes. Maybe I'm sensitive for that, or I'm trying to ignore it.

I feel like, I'm a nothing, I'm nothing to everyone.

DAMN....

Can some1 help me to do a brain wash? Not christian kind of brain wash thingy... Or maybe, someone bright me a way?.... I will really appreciate for the help.....

Tired... Dunno why I will write bout this... and it is 12.12am already...

Works that I had done in this few weeks!

2009-07-19T10:28:00.018+08:00

When I'm in Primary and Secondary School, most of my homework are done in our exercise book. But now, It is a bit different, I done my work inside a sketchbook.

My Sketchbook

There is no cover design for my sketchbook coz I'm Lazy...

And there are my works.

( Sketching anything that you want in your beg )

My left hand, my 1st sketch of my own ( FULL Scale ) hand

( Sketch anything in your living room. )

Actually I wanna sketch out my Desktop, but you know.... It is complicated... and messy...
AND............ I'm lazy...

Line + Line = Linessssss

Lines again... ( Who can get a VERY GOOD for this? I salute you! )

Shapes... Find out that I learn nothing from here...

My 2nd sketch of my own hand by using " so called proper way of sketching, scaling " I scale the picture everytime when I wanna sketch.

The CORRECT way to hold a pencil. ( Should I hold it like this when I sketch it on a small piece of paper? WTH... )

And we must do this PENCIL HOLDING STYLE for every lines we draw, even with the sketch of the butterfly and shading for contour.

Lines, Again and AGAIN

My beautiful little butterfly

Shadings with different type of pencil

My dad complains that the way of exercise for shading techniques is totally wrong.
And I'm totally agree.

This sphere thing really stress me out. The time wasted for this shading is the longest.

I found out that I'm so stupid that I sketch out so many but they only sketch 1 for each shape...

Continue for my REAL work.

Pencil Sketching, and Puan Nik give me a Good Try... Really a good try indead... It can be done better by myself if I'm hardworking enuff.

Charcoal Sketching

Pen sketching

The total work time for the sketching of the vase thingy is 12 hours+

And the next work is so called " COLOR RESEARCH ".

Poor coloring...

Improved...

Improved and better, But still not GOOD enuff.

Last minute work at the library before the class starts.

What can you see inside?

For the assignment 1 for Introduction to Illustration is to draw an animal. I choose this animal, MOUSE 5 weeks ago, but end up choosing tiger at the end.

My tiger Sketching \|/
http://blaze-jason.blogspot.com/2009/07/my-tiger.html
http://blaze-jason.blogspot.com/2009/07/week-8-of-college-life.html

Incomplete mouse sketching

My mouse characters

The Final

And for Bryn's assignments, Here is the T-shirt design ( in manual sketching )

My T-shirt design

Another Assignment, Color correction

Kampung Landscape

Me in a Black shirt

There is also have Chow's assignments. And I will show it soon together with my assignment 3 and 4 of Conceptual Design.

My work are so DAMN SUKS in his class! I'll be DAMN!

2009-07-16T18:08:00.004+08:00

Juz came back from college. Pity that I cant go for the movie, Harry Potter Half Blood Prince.

Maybe, some of my classmates are planning to go for that movie tomorrow... Then... should I ponteng AGAIN for my gym class tomorrow? Arh... thirst for that movie... i watch every movie of Harry Potter in the cinema, but not the novels, because that I'm lazy to read! XD

Today, I'm there for my friend's presentation for H.E. They really give me alot of pressure. And for next 2 weeks, I still have oral and presentation. And tonight, I still have to rush my journal and a report for Introduction to Art.

Although I still have alot of things need to be done, but still, I want to blog.

I know my blog is not interesting, BUT STILL! I will write something for it!

Most of my friends already done for their presentation, congratulation! You guys can relax ABIT liao! Maybe some of you can DotA for a few matches! Syok~ But I cant...

And I juz recieved my action figure from ATI few days ago. It is not that nice, but at least it is a limited edition. Only 1000 are made for this action figure. I got this when I bought my ATI Radeon HD4870 graphic card.

ATI Agent Ruby

Box for My graphic card

And I have to prepare myself for my dinner and get going to start my work!

The Past

2009-07-15T21:52:00.010+08:00

After reading bryn's latest post, I feel like... OMG... is it true? The person he is in kidergarden till secondary school? Hardly imagine...

I was always wondering, I'm so lazy to do extra research, like Bryn said. Or sometimes hardly to motivate myself to start doing it. I fell like I'm so bad.

And I start using photoshop when I was in primary school.

Photoshop 6

Photoshop 7

Photoshop CS (PS8)

Photoshop CS 4 (PS11)

But still, I'm not very familiar with Photoshop. Only know some image resize, crop, face makeup, color corection, remove unwanted objects from the picture and so on.
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My result was bad during my secondary school, specially when I addicted to DotA.

DotA 5.80 series

I start DotA when I'm in Form 1. I still remember, me, Ah Lai, Ah Poh, Jireh was planning of going to cyber cafe to play Starcraft LAN game. We was so excited and that is the 1st day I step into cyber cafe.
That cyber cafe is Inferno.

But havent finished a game, then someone call us to on Warcraft III The frozen Throne. On that time, what is in my mind, I KNOW THAT GAME!

Then, that guy create a game in LAN, and all of us join him. 5 of my newbie friends versus 2 of them game, can u imagine that?

We end up confusing, why I cant control the creeps? Why the item is not as same as Single player campiagn? We only can control 1 hero?! WTH?! But still, me and Ah Lai enjoy the game, it is really interesting. That is the day we know, what is DotA.

Starting from that day, I always train my DotA in cyber cafe because I don't have internet at home. After a few weeks later, we invited that guy back and play DotA with him, he end up losing. Well, as I can see, I improved. So, me and Ah Lai is getting high and higher for DotA. Everytimes, we invite those, so called PROs CC kia to play with us. If is a 2 v 3 of them, we also accept the due.

It was fun. But there is no fun when I put this in my studies. Other people study Sejarah, Geografi and other subjects, and me? I study item build for every heroes. analyze every hero's abilities. And plan tactics when we having a GANG BANG.

So at the end, my result is way poor. I was in 2 Bestari in Form 2, A.K.A the 1st class in school. But at the next year, Form 3, I end up in the last class.

But still, I still continue to play DotA... Until now... 5 years of DotA experience, from DotA AllStars 5.84b to 6.61b...

I wonder how many time I wasted for my secondary school life...

Week 8 of college life

2009-07-15T14:02:00.012+08:00

Arh... Juz came back from the school. So damn tired, I only got 4 hours of sleep and for yesterday, I only got 3 hours of sleep.

Last few days, I have to rush my assignments and don't even have time to write my blog. Because of my laziness and poor in time management, most of my works look like mess. Specially for TTG's group assignment. After finished my group assignment, we have a group discussion with MSN group chatting. We discuss about what we are going to talk about at the presentation. What is the point of our art work and so so on... And I wrote a 600 words of essay for that. It is also for our group assignment report.

After the discussion, I'm so tired, but still, I had to continue do my tiger sketching with pen.

( My dad took 2 shots behind me )

( Pen Sketching of my Tiger, unfinished background )

My total work for my Assignment 1 for Illustration class.

( 3 different media, charcoal, pen and color pencil )
( have to eat and drink a cup of Nescafe when I'm working up late )

And for the presentation day for our art work in our class, when standing infront of the class, my brain is totally freeze out, hardly think of anything. Actually there is alot of things that I want to present, but due to the fear, I skip almost all of it.

( Our Final Piece of Art Work )

After the presentation, we celebrate Trista's birthday.

Trista

Birthday wishing

( What am I so excited about... == )

Cutting the cake

Group photo

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Befor celebrate Trista's birthday, Jeff and me went to Ah Fei's house to touch up our tiger sketching.

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After celebrate Trista's birthday, we went to pass up our assignments.

We waited 1 hour to take back our assignment. And bout the marking system, IT SUCKS!

I really damn unhappy for other things too, but what to do? Blame myself on it lor.

But actually is fine. At least I know... You know...

Me and my Assignment

Jeff and his Assignment

The Human6, group 1 is missing

And the day continues~

Comparison

2009-07-12T22:01:00.014+08:00

If You have a case sensitive bout comparison to someone's work,
Please Please Please PLEASE! DO NOT READ THIS!
Thank You!

Have a comparison for your work to another work tat is better than yours, so that you can improve yourself, or maybe improve your own work.

If this kind of comparison is tiring and not worth it, then there will be no more better AMD and Intel chipset for us to use already. Guys should know what is AMD and what is Intel, right?

Without their hard work, there will be no more laptop and desktop for us to use. Specially those stylish laptop. Why they need to do it stylish? All of them squeeze out their brain juice for new idea, new functions, new design, new visual effect for their products, to attract the buyers.

Oh... almost forgot, MAC and WINDOWS. Who else dunno these? Why most of the people love MAC? Because they are stylish! They also have the most advance OS in the word!

And then, why WINDOWS create a new OS called Window 7? Why MAC create the most advance OS in the word called Mac OS X Snow Leopard? Why 2 OS came out at time like this? Are they comparing their new product to the previous version? or comparing to their COMPETITIVE?

Did I just said competitive out BIG and RED?

Tell me, out there, show me something that has no comparison between their products to the others.

I know I know! Piracy softwares! They only get from the original, DL from the internet and burn, sell! Simple as that!

And there is alot of our parents, buy ToTo, buy Magnum, DaMaCai, for what? Of coz for money! Why need so much money? coz they think they dun have enuff money! Why they think they have not enuff? Coz they want their life better!

Some people work hard for it, some people dream of hiting a jackpot. There is alot kind of people out there.

If you think this kind of comparison is stress for you, don't compare, no one is forcing you.

"Ya, no one is forcing me and I won't compare too much, really stress me out."

So, for you own good,

"PLEASE, Do not compare TOO MUCH,

So, Don't you ever say people's work is nice or bad,
or maybe there is a BAD thinking in your mind "

YOU ARE COMPARING, ISN't IT? Is It STRESS?

I almost forgot, do not compare and improve your OWN work to your previous works, It will really stress you out! SO DON't DO BETTER! REMEMBER THAT! IS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD!

~ ~ ~~ ~~ " Watever~ "

My Tiger!

2009-07-12T19:25:00.006+08:00

Argh... Still have to Rush for my assignments!

But still, I have to blog!

Today, I juz finished sketching and color my animal! This is my 1st assignment for Illustration class. For this assignment, we have to illustrate an animal, and I chose tiger.

Yesterday night, I spent 4 hours+ to finish up my charcoal sketching on the tiger.

( Tiger Cacat )

( Comparing to the original )

The tiger is already a bit bit cacat... thx to my laziness... I lazy to do a full scare measuring for my tiger and then it looks like this... I finished my tiger cacat at 12.30am in the morning, means TODAY, 12th of July.

And today, after my breakfast at 7.30am, I continue to do my assignment.

This is my war zone. \|/

Abit meesy @@

And I have my hair cut with Ah Lai at APT and we had our lunch together too in KFC. I return to my home around 1.30pm. Then, I continue my assignment, Color drawing for my tiger.

This time, I measure zhun zhun.

After Finished, \|/

For what I can see, there is a missing part in that tiger. Who can find that missing part on my tiger?

( Comparison to the RAW photo )

I already finished 2! One more to go! Pen sketching!

Have to get going, still have TTG assignment need to be done! A1 size and a 500 words essay like thingy!

HENG! @@

My Another Day

2009-07-09T21:47:00.010+08:00

Yesterday, Kai Jian, Ah Poh, Ah Mak and I juz watch Transformers Revenge of The Fallen together in GSC Signiture at The Gardens.

Transformers: Revenge of The Fallen

This was the 2nd time for watching Revenge of The Fallen in the cinema with Kai Jian. Jian got lucky enough to watch Revenge of The Fallen at the 1st day of official release of this blockbuster movie.

( The revive of Megatron and the Megatron search Sam with Starscream )

It is a great movie. I watched all movie tat is directed by Micheal Bay. And tat Shia LaBeouf, A.K.A Sam Witchwicky in Transformers, I watched every single of his movies, Holes, Disturbia, Eagle Eye, Indiana Jones, Transformers 1 & 2.

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And today, 9th of July, Thursday, I feel so tired... And we juz wrote How do you feel today for our english journal.

The English class ended at 11am. Me and my frens went to Wangsa Maju to have our breakfast/lunch together.I ordered a ban min and ice blended mango juice with jellies in it, sweet~

Ice blended mango juice with jellies, dry curry chick-in ban min ( cost me ONLY Rm9 ) =.=

Then we go to shop to search for some DVD softwares. And I bought a Vista Ultimate SP2 32 bit.

We had our H.E class and it ended at 5pm. I reached home at 5.30pm+. I feel so stress, like lost somekind of "HEAT" inside me. I had my bath and had my nap till 8pm. But still, I felt more and more tired...

Maybe tat is it for me for today, got to rest, no extra activities, no games, no assignments and have to sleep early. But still, Im ending up, sitting here continue to write my blog.

Feel really bad for myself. Actually I start writing this post at 9.30am by using my Acer Aspire One netbook. It is kinda hard to use coz is it too punny.. always ter-press the spacebar and Caps Lock. Really piss me off.

Got to get some rest or else, I have to listen to iritating soundwaves tat is created by my mom.

Wallpaper The 4th!

2009-07-08T14:56:00.004+08:00

My 4th wallpaper created!

The growing effect is not good, maybe I will do more so I can improve myself... abit....
Of coz, I must do my other assignments!

TTG Last Minutes Pre-Presentation Preparation

2009-07-06T18:34:00.010+08:00

Actually, there is a lot of outgoing with my frens. But it is juz hard to write it all down in my blog, maybe Im lazy? I am lor ==...

Last friday, I juz ponteng my Gym class and go Mid Valley watch Ice Age with Jeff, Fei, Meng Zai, Shaun, Kenny, Kevin, Trista and Carol. I very bad lor... Follow them watch movie orh...

But nevermind lar, It is A nice movie indeed. Very funny, full of humourous.

And Sunday, Jeff, Fei, Shaun and Meng Zai go KLCC... Also dunno do wat, flip some pages, go PRESS $ and go KFC makan liao. And there is a movie section with Carol and her fren, Sarah, at Time Square after our trip at KLCC. But to bad, it canceled.

After reached home, we still have to rush our TTG assignment...

And today, after our mid term Exam in the DKABD lecturing hall, Fei drive Jeff, Meng Zai, Zhi Hao, Kenny back my home, of coz I'm following them back my home together.

We did something to our A1 size paper. It is Kinda a hard thingy... Need paint, need paste need do this and tat.

See tat sozai, who is him?

Teamworking~

See who boss arranging our job~

Victory >.<V see Meng Zai~

color management.... ( sounds pro but still a NOOB )

Bee~zy-ing...

Fast painting~

Looks who show hand while Im doin?

See, Senior, The BOSS is guiding me... Shame lar me...

Almost done the upper part~

The painting section ends at 6pm.

And Jeff juz SMS me, "diu you la... show the wrong way summore, didnt give bek my pendrive.."

SRY lor~ XD

I will upload some of the photos to my blog soon. Waiting for Jeff to upload those photos to me~ FAST lar u! Slowpoke! Malas ULAT! XD~

My Wallpaper

2009-07-04T13:45:00.004+08:00

Ya, Bryn was rite, we are lazy to search for tutorials. Now I only wanna start doing it, and still have a lot of assignments got to be done. But at least I interested on doing this wallpaper thingy.

My 1st Wallpaper

My 2nd Wallaper

My 3rd Wallpaper

My Desktop

The Proud ONE

2009-06-28T22:55:00.003+08:00

29 August 2008

Transport Problem to TARC...

2009-06-15T21:50:00.004+08:00

Everyday, I have to think for my transport to TARC. DAMN CB mafan. My mom is so Fuking irritating too. Always complain complain and complain. Specially complain bout my father. FUK her, how good is she? NAH!~ o0o

Always complain bout fetching me to school or back from school. Sometimes, she also complain bout, 车油钱很贵啊！我的钱都不够用！你知道不知道我有多省？Really? How u save ur money? teach me some skill plz?

I pleased her to fetch me at Jusco, she also complain but this expensive, tat expensive.

Beg her to let me drive to school , she said, 我不用用车啊？

then I reply, 你去哪里？巴刹？你不是说，你要我去吃苦的吗？说我，搭一下巴士都不可以？会死啊？then I ask you, 你不可以搭巴士去巴刹吗？那些aunty aunty 也不是一样！每天搭巴士去巴刹？！我读书重要点还是你去巴刹重要？

Tat sohai bitch beh song, then terus blow, 将的话就不用去读书了！不要浪费时间和金钱！

每天坐BUS 才浪费时间啊!没听过时间是金钱啊?! o0o NAH! no face give her also.

Everyday also need to tumpang fren's de car go home, damn 不好意识，but wat can I do? If not, I reach home at 8.30pm if I take bus home. WTF?! 6pm class ends and reach home at 8.30pm? Dinner and clean myself up? Already 9pm liao!

难到我真的要自己搭巴士回吗？haih...... 真没办法....

I'm so Lucky today?

2009-06-12T17:51:00.004+08:00

Today, I late for my breakfast coz of waiting my dad to breakfast together. And I must wait bus at Nova II at 7.30am! When I pass by Nova II, I saw those aunty aunty waiting for U24 bus already. After I reach my house, OMG?! Is already 7.45am! but when I get there, all the aunty gone! I think the bus juz got off 20 secs ago. On tat time, I totally speechless, and out of options tat I want to take. I told myself, nevermind, I wait for the second bus and wish myself gud luck... While waiting at Nova II, I saw my fren de car pass by and he stop! He got out the car and asked me, Go school arh? Nak tumpang my car? SURE! WHY NOT?! Finally, I got lucky.....~ But I reach school at 8.20am lor... damn early... and my class only starts at 10am!

I sit at the canteen, take out my stupid mini notebook, browse some web for killing the time...

I had my class at 10am. It only take me 1.30 hour nia... I had my lunch with my frens. After tat, I went to library, browse web again, totally ~BORING.

Then, I had my Gym class at 2pm. Im totally speechless... I also have to be leader for my group. OMG?! Han Siang, a.k.a Jason be a group leader? Dun xiao xiao lar! Dia boleh meh?!! Imposible!

And group leaders have to show gud example.. OMG... all those moves, have to do perfectly! Saya mana boleh?! So much of pressure leh! Takut I cant handle... CANT TAHAN! And starting from next week, I have to warm up together with my group members and give those moves de command and so so on... Group leader wor? No feel lucky of being a group leader meh? Should be proud mar.... ==

And the MOST IMPORTANT PART is, KAI JIAN CAN FETCH ME HOME! Yay! Can go home early and no need to wait for bus! SYOK~ Sooo Luckieee~ Jian, Thank You!

And Im surprised tat, Mun Yi and her gang got go Hubungan Etnik de class? OMG... so damn rajin meh... I feel so guilty leh... Y go arh... Show so gud de example again... give me pressure de leh for being a GOOD student...

Haih... Wat a day...

After reach Taman Sri Sinar, me and Jian go for tea for 20 minutes. At night, I still have to go YAM CHA with PDI gang. Haih... and again... have to get home at 3am liao... tired leh... Lucky tat tomoro is SATURDAY! NO SCHOOL! YAY! But.... still have to do assignment... sien diao!~

Im Sick of DotA

2009-06-11T22:39:00.004+08:00

Haih... DotA DotA and DotA... Till I sien jor... These day, I totally look like a noob, go feed feed and feed liao... Only win 1 game out of 5 games... Maybe Im already a NOOB ==

I should take a rest, and stop DotA awile liao!

Like I said,
I SHOULD NOT DOTA TOMORROW!

So so... sick...

2009-06-10T22:31:00.001+08:00

SICK SICK SICK! IM SICK! Beh Tahan Liao!

Got to rest for tonight!

Welcome Back, Kai Jian! / College Life ( IM SICK! )

2009-06-09T20:35:00.004+08:00

Yesterday Kai Jian went back from KN. Unluckly, I was studying in college and I was unable to meet him.

It was a hot weather yesterday. But I end up got cold yesterday. !-.-!!|

I meet new friends, and we went to library, had our lunch together.

Our class ends at 6pm yesterday. Me? I take bus to go home. I was waiting for the bus for 1.20 hour, damn CB long, really train my patience. On tat time, I starting to feel sick, I think I got cold coz I enter the library while I was sweating, and my shirt was got wet. I asked my mom to fectch me back home from Titiwangsa Bus Station. And finally, I end up reach home at 8.49pm. And I have alot of works to do.

After my bath and dinner, I started to do my work. Not for long, Poh calls. He ask me out YC with Kai Jian, and Jian is the driver. On tat time, I still havent finnish up my work! God Damn it! Kai Jian was at my house to fetch me at 10pm, with C.C tag along. So, I went out with them and had to cont my work after yam cha. We went to M.V to fetch Poh Poh and La La Mui - Ah Mak too!

We went to Anna house to visit her at arround 11pm. And her baby is so so cute! KENG GAI for 30 minutes later and we have to go for our supper d. Bub Bye Anna! MEet again next time! We reach Steven's Corner mamat at around 11.45pm.

They talk a bunch of craps while eating. And the most interesting part is, watever we talking about, sure can link to Kai Jian's story while he is in KN.

After yam cha, I reach home at 1.30am, today. I start to cont my work until 3.30am baru siap.

I end up falling asleep in V103 class, tat is next to our V104 de lecturing class while waiting for the lecturer. I slept for 30 minutes.

B4 tat, our class for introduction to art was canceled. So, Jeff, the others and me went to library to finnish our work on the sugar paper.

But when the lecturer came, she said, take out ur sugar paper and white media and start drawing now. I only give u all 15 minutes, and u all have to come out and give intro bout urself, she said. OMG?! 早知道我就不用赶夜车啦！"发" ! But nevermind lar, a 4 hours work for tat piece of thingy, Im satisfied for it! XD

And I had sketch a pencil and a glue stick... =.= Kinda weird? Lecturer wanted us to sketch something from the beg or pencil case... I also sketched a drawing, my hand! But Im not satified with it, it looks kinda... fake...

Now Im having serious cold... Really Beh Tahan! Keep on sneezing! So DAMN UNWELL! I think I have to get to sleep now...

What a Boring Sunday

2009-06-07T22:02:00.002+08:00

Today damn boring lor... I finnish my rough sketch for my "Black Squares Problem" for my 1st assignment yesterday.

But today, I quarrel with my mom bout braking the car thingy, totally non sense! Will the braking system goes weaker when I hold the brake while the car is on ZERO velocity? And she want me to use handbrake while waiting for the green light. But only a few secs, y must I do so?

And Everytimes, when I have the mood to do something serious, for example my assignment or do anything "HARDWORKING" thingys, my mom sure make me feel worse, let me sien diao! Totally break my mood! I think my dad also got this prob! Tat is y my dad cant focus on his work! And my mom juz keep on SPAM SPAM and SPAM! Totally a Devil to me! So, today I didnt start doin my work on a sugar paper for self introduction in my class.

And today, play 5 matches of DotA, juz to relax myself abit bit, + taking it as a FREE MYSELF from my miserable mother. But losing game de lose 9 liao, winning game de DC 9 liao.

Stupid UCplay server, worse than previous de blueserver. And there is still a major prob in this server, many ppl think tat they are PRO enuff to talk, acting Captain in the game, or do watever bullshiting, really cant tahan them. If i got 1.21 version for my Warcraft III, I wont be playing in UCplay, or so called, UCPro server. Did I see PRO in there? Only bunch of Sohai, or bunch of PRO Acting Captain in the game, tat is Wat i saw. No need I mention Siapa siapa. After tat incidents, I always act as a noob, and less talkative in DotA game. But the most important thing, I know wat im capable of, wat im gud at, or maybe where is my weakness and tat is enuff, I wont care bout those iritating de criticises.

And now, I sitting infront of my PC, in the living room, wondering, Y am I writing this blog? Y dont I go have a little bit of chit cahtting? Y?! And my mom, sitting on the floor bhind me, watching today's chinese newspapers, reading those robbery news, and talk jesus to me bout wat happened in those robberies and so so on~. And my dad, sitting infront of his PC playing Tumble Bugs, I cant hear the pip pop sound in my living room although he is on the 3rd floor. My dad is escaping from the stressness... From my the devil....

Totally a boring Sunday...

So, Kai Jian will be back tomoro, and he said, most of his time kena booked d. LOL? So busy meh? And he should starts planning for his schooling things liao lor. College intake will be coming soon also.

Wish him all the best for his future ba! +U+U!

My college Life ( Eng Lec. Put Aeroplane?! )

2009-06-04T18:12:00.003+08:00

Today de English Language class canceled... And I came to the class at 8.50am, and tat environment is scares out of me... and creepy too. Wasted so much time on waiting for but lecturer but the latest news said, the class will starts next week.

And I wait for Ah Lai to go makan at 11.45am. A guy came to me, and asked, can i take ur 15 minutes time? I wanna ask bout ur opinion bout Malaysia's internet bla bla bla and our telecomunication service or any provider and bla bla bla. Ya, y not? Im waiting for my fren too!

And then, he keep on asking, asking and asking, and still, need me to fill in the blanks, and ask bout my monthy allowance for food, entertainment and comunication bla bla bla~ He said, they are doin some research and so so on... Wat kind of research? It is can improve our Streamyx connection? improve download speed? RM100 for 6mb/s?! NAH! It wont... but still, Im answering his question 1 by 1... BORING~

After 20 minutes.... Finally... is over.... And Ah Lai juz stand in front of me, waiting for me, and his face is really funny when he is staring at me, watching me aswering those stupid answer~

I bought my A3 size Drawing paper at TBR, and it cost me RM10! Expensive! Nevermind!

And we go to CC for a match of DotA! I use Night Stalker, and I got double kill at lv5! ROAR!!! And it is a win win match! The match take around 45 minutes, ONLY RM1.50. Consider as entertainment, is worth it ba, kill us some time too!

We went back to college library, and I borrowed a book, written by Stephen KING, the tittle is Four Past Midnight. I watch a movie based on this novel b4, kinda scary, and interesting too. After 45 minutes, we went to canteen and had our lunch. We had our chit chat there and wait for our class to come. We also have a walk in college... and the weather is damn hot... both of us are crazy... walk walk under this kind of IMBA weather. And we waiting at block Q for our class lecturer to come. I had my Hubungan Etnik class. And I got in a NICE group too! So SYOK......... =.=|||

And we still have to do a group assignment and ~ ~ ~ ~. tons and tons of explaination~

And I got home at 6.30pm and I drive to get back my dad's external HDD, so he wont kill me...

and now, Im sitting in front of my PC, writing my blog, and wait for my dinner to come...

Preparing My Assignment

2009-06-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

Today I bought a layout pad and a A4 size drawing book, and I found out tat I dun have enuff money to buy another A3 size drawing book, and it is compulsory too... And I have to wait for tomoro to buy it. Damn lazy to walk there again...

Im wondering too, should I get another part time job, juz to support myself.

And still... I have to take bus to go to college... almost everyday... boring and tiring... always fall asleep in the bus...

But lucky for today, my journey back home, only takes me 1.15 hour... better...

My Desktop!

2009-05-30T17:16:00.002+08:00

1st Week of College Life

2009-05-21T23:02:00.004+08:00

All TARC students starts their Orientation on this Monday.

And me? I take bus to TARC lor... Is a really damn tiring journey! if the lectures or any activities start at 9am, and I have to start taking bus at 6.40am in the morning.

I have to take 2 buses to reach TARC. U11 from Sri Sinar to Titiwangsa. Then take U24 to TARC directly. It almost takes 3 hours to reach TARC, depends on the traffic.

On Monday, I feels kinda nervous lor... The school so damn big... and many students! When we, the freshies enter the school, all the seniors stare at us... really uncomfortable... and they also promote their clubs, bla bla bla and so so on... AND THE MOST INTERESTING club is Society Club. And can get credit hour easily.

The next day, Tuesday, we have our main course de lecturer is giving advices to us. And the most attractive part is, to buy a SLR camera and a Laptop, minimum budget for both unit is only 6k+ very cheap orh hor? 2k for cam and 4k for mac book. After those lecturing, I register for my own ID card, is a hard work, but not to create the card, but to line up for almost 2 hours for this card. I went back home without thinking of staying any longer for this day in TARC.

On Wednesday is Society Day. I have a look on every club for around 1 hour+, then I went back home with Ah Lai. I have lunch with my dad. Me and my dad went to cinema to watch Star Trek after our lunch. This is my 2nd time by watching Star Trek, is worth it!

And Thursday, tat is today, I saw the ID registration place have a row of fans... WTF?! Tat day, we don't even have a single fan! and is around 3pm+ is so damn HOT! FINE!

Today, we learn bout time management and those basic study skills. Bout time management, I try to list down all my activities for the 24 hours after waiting my second lecturer to come. I find out tat I used almost 6 hours for traveling to TARC! and the another 6 hours sleep? another 6 hours time for listening to the lectures? bath? lunch? another 1 hour gone! I only left 5 hours for my relaxation and my asignments!

I have to plan it wisely, if not, i will be in the MESS!

Still waiting for the time table, maybe I will back to work as a part timer. Have to buy this and tat, NEED MONEY! But does it worth it? I dont think I can buy a DSL camera in the 1st year with only THE SALARY. Or should I get the money from my dad?

Zzzzzz....

The Day After Stop Working

2009-05-13T23:58:00.006+08:00

My PC is in the living room!

Juz moved my PC from my '' store room '' to my living room. Quiet omfortable with current position... but can turn up the volume to max anymore.... DAMN!

Still lack of something on my desktop....\|/

Cute thingy!

CUTE CUTE CUTE!

5/18 is the 1st day of schooling in TARC! I will take KTM and LRT there ba... zzzz LAzy... KTM again... wait till siao lor...

Still have to wake up at 7am and have my breakfast and start my journey...

Still thinking of wanting to go back to PDI work part time or not.... @@ My mind very messy now, CANT THINK!

work = got $, tired, no freedom, less sleep no leng lui see(wah!)! Be part of ingredient in the sandwich(sempit sempit di KTM)

no work = no money, stay at home rot(maybe), meet frens, see leng lui(woot!), freedom! have enuff sleep(can mou?...), let frens kill shoot and me from....(er....)

Wat to do? Still sleep late leh... I should try to sleep early liao! school is coming! cant be bad boy again!

Dun care lar!

Today juz watch Star Trek at Cinema in Kepong Jusco! NICE MOVIE! special effects are in every secs!

And Ah Poh manage to get the meaning of the story...

2009-05-03T23:32:00.003+08:00

I will not dare to say it again, it is really freaking me out. All those flash back of my memories........

SCARY!

I juz keep it to myself, that is all. No one will knows, and there will be no spreading, nice and quiet. The total silence, feel free and fresh, and all of us are happy, living a good life.

who will ( ) be (updated)

2009-04-29T23:03:00.007+08:00

Updated from
http://blaze-jason.blogspot.com/2009/04/who-will-be.html

Be a Mr. Nice guy? Let ppl say or bullshitting and u juz smile smile like a sozai donkey?

But some of them, they will improve themself, learn from it, get experiences, be brave, and change theirself! Juz like in DotA, a Stealth Assassin is almost a NOTHING when below 6lv. But when he gets to lv6 and learnt Permanent Invisibility, this will cost the enermies! maybe he will be like a Mr Sandman, kill them when their enermy eyes are close!

And wat is Mr. Sandman?

Mr. Sandman! They Kill ppl while they are sleeping, while they are closing their eyes! 1 slash on the neck, 1 kill, simple as tat.

And Man with a smiling mask on their face?! A joker or wat?! Hide ur face bhind the mask and other ppl will never know ur true face bhind it?!! Yeah! Tat's right! Nobody will know ur true identity, do thingy silently, maybe hide a knife bhind their back and ready to stab you while talking nicely infront of you! You will never know!

But some of them are stupid enuff to wear a wrong mask and get caught! Wow! This will really cost their life points!

Or you Be a Sniper?! Other ppl havent notice u yet, BIAM! he is dead, and u live! Maybe u hide on a tall tall de tower far far away, even DOG also cant smell you and ppl cant see u! Snipe down ur enermies 1 by 1! But when u are unlucky enuff, and you are facing a big tank and BOOM! You the sniper are dead!

Maybe you are the one who is controlling tat BIG tank, you own the sniper, but u will get blow up like a scrap metal by a anti tank unit, who know?

Maybe you are a Guardian Angel to some ppl for blowing the evil sniper to piece, but there is still have alot of evil out there! they will silently take you out! So beware!

Other than those silent killers, some ppl is a Madman here. They destroy anything on their way. Maybe they saw something goes wrong and stop their path, they wont think and u aim for the one who is blocking them! They will hunt you down Even they are infront of those who have a word, Justice, on their forehead.

And some are Genthlemen. Mostly, they are respected by the others. But how many ppl will survive?

Do you want to be a gentlemen? Or you want to have another crazy JOB for urself? Thinking of wat you are, who you wanna be, or maybe you should change urself in different situation? Maybe you must sacrifice some ppl for ur own gud? or you are too NICE and take all the loses, will some1 pity you? Maybe I do, but will them?

5/29

2009-04-29T20:56:00.004+08:00

Today, I go Kepong Metro Prima Jusco watch Wolfvarine! Is a nice movie, nice story.

And I spend alot of money today... Thx to my mom, she dun want to fetch me home and it was raining, I cant take it any longer on waiting the bus, so I take taxi home... Cost me RM5.20... Nevermind...

When I reach home, my dad told me, the house near our house are on fire! cause by the lighning strike! And my dad took the photo of it at 3rd floor~

The Ahli Bomba reach there when the roof is almost completely burn... Really lame...

Luckly, things inside the house are safe, only the roof is gone... and now, where is the place tat that family goin to stay... Or maybe the can cont staying in tat house until the roof is fixed up and they can see stars tonight when they are lying on their sleeping bed!

Who will ( ) be?

2009-04-28T00:14:00.005+08:00

Be a Mr. Nice guy? Let ppl say or bullshitting and u juz smile smile like a sozai donkey?

Or a man with a smiling mask? Hide ur face bhind the mask and other ppl will never know ur true face bhind it.

Be a Sniper?! Other ppl havent notice u yet, BIAM! he is dead, and u live! Maybe u hide on a tall tall de tower and ppl cant see u! If u are unlucky enuff, you are facing a big tank and BOOM! You the sniper are dead!

Maybe you are the one who is controlling tat BIG tank, you own the sniper, but u will get blow up like a scrap metal by a anti tank unit, who know? So beware!

And some ppl like to be Mr. Sandman! Kill ppl while they are sleeping, while they are closing their eyes! 1 slash on the neck, 1 kill, simple as tat.

And some are Genthlemen. Mostly, they are respected by the others. But how many ppl will survive?

DotA LAN Game In MYhouse!

2009-04-23T23:06:00.007+08:00

Juz Had 2 matches of DotA with Ah Lai and Maxwell!

Long time didnt DotA with him jor, and dunno tat New.Peter die till where jor, PM him also no reply, FINE! Delete him from my contact list! bub bye!

Back to the history of playing 2 match of DotA juz now, really syok! But damn sui de leh... forget to take picture while both of us are playing dota in my computer room.

My old computer desk's look~

Current de computer desk! A mini Acer notebook bside! Juz for DotA!

Depend on this stupid Maxtor 160GB de EHDD, baru can DotA in this noob laptop!

Now using x2 stereo speaker! play games?! Gila when max out the volume! Bim Bim Bam Bam!

Specially playing crysis! Syok! Sometimes scare the hell out of me! coz like the fuking alien sound come from bhind!

WOOT! Sonic Gear and Altec Lansing~

Games Eddiction

2009-04-23T00:01:00.001+08:00

A new study published by Iowa State University and the National Institute on Media and the Family finds that 8.5 percent of gamers aged 8 to 18 show signs of gaming addiction, reports GamePolitics.

The study, which compared traits found in nearly 1,200 young gamers to adults diagnosed with gambling addiction, found that one in twelve exhibited one or more of the following behaviors:

Lying to family and friends about video game usage
Using video games to escape from problems or bad feelings
Becoming restless or irritable when attempting to stop playing video games
Skipping homework in order to play video games
Doing poorly on a school assignment or test because they spent too much time on games.

"Many parents have been worried about their children being ‘addicted’ to video games," wrote Iowa State University professor Douglas Gentile. "While the medical community currently does not recognize video game addiction as a mental disorder, hopefully this study will be one of many that allow us to have an educated conversation on the positive and negative effects of video games."

Dr. Cheryl Olson, co-author of Grand Theft Childhood, disagrees with Professor Gentile's conclusions.

"The concern here is labeling normal childhood behaviors as 'pathological' and 'addicted.' The author is repurposing questions used to assess problem gambling in adults; however, lying to your spouse about blowing the rent money on gambling is a very different matter from fibbing to your mom about whether you played video games instead of starting your homework," Olson told GamePolitics.

"It's also very questionable whether kids as young as 8 can accurately fill out a self-administered online questionnaire, especially one that uses questions designed for adults."

While I still see the idea of gaming addiction as an unanswered question, I believe Dr. Olson has a point. How many of us, as children, opted to play games instead of studying for a test? How many of us still use games as an escape when life sucks? How many of us ever asked mom for "just a few minutes more" when she attempted to pry us away from the Super Nintendo?

Crysis In Max Settings!

2009-04-22T00:40:00.005+08:00

Muahaha! Finally can run Crysis in Very High Settings! The power of DirectX 10! For VISTA and Window 7 ONLY!

Now Will Be DAMN! I cant run my old PC! Cant even in the Window! OMFG! My dad gonna KILL ME!

My New PC!

2009-04-19T12:41:00.005+08:00

I juz bought my new PC last on Friday. It is not a powerful rig but it is able to give a goooooood performance. And now I have my ATI HD 4870 Graphic card installed.

The temperature of my PC is cooking me also! Now my small little room is like a cooking pot and Im inside it... My new PC produce too much of heat... MUST HAVE AN AIRCOND!

Tat Red Card! HD4870!

The Graphic Card is the most expensive hardware in my whole rig, RM800.... My Salary is GONE!

My New PC is Coming!

2009-04-15T09:27:00.004+08:00

Yeah! Later, Me and my dad are goin to Sungai Wang to buy my new PC! Hurray! And I have my HD4870 graphic card too! B E AUTIFUL!

And I bought my modem and router also, can online liao! Wireless sumore! YEAH!

Rockx Man!

My Graphic Card!

Im back to ONLINE!

2009-04-10T22:52:00.003+08:00

IM BACK ONLINE!!!

Planning to buy a New PC vvery very soon! And I juz got my new Modem and router at PC fair! Yeah babie! My house go WiFi!

Nothing interesting to write in the blog, only work work and work everything, and have many sensitive cases tat cant be writen on the blog, lame, guess Im juz keeping them for myself! SAYA MAKAN ALL THE PAIN! FINE! Really doesnt matter actually...

I Really wish to study d lar... Dun want work liao, boring and meaningless.

Told myself to earn money for my further studies? earn money for my montly expenses in college life? duh? My salary is not more than Rm1.4k, I juz work for 40 days + only, maybe less. No commision, have nothing, but tat is not the prob.

And my transport fees to work is Rm3 per day! And I have to eat too! Rm3 for the mix rice! And a cup of nescafe, another Rm1.50 goner! Great, Every days of work, I have to use Rm7.50! And my salary for 1 day is Rm30! or maybe RM35 for some days. Rm35-Rm7.50-patrol $ for my mom fetching me 2 times per day? Cant even earn anything actually...

Working at there, juz a a freaking robot.

Greeeting! My "RICH" customers! Today we have some nice and stylish shirts for saling! and we have promotions too! And the shirts have a very decent price too! Come and take a look!

Some customers dont even fuk with me! juz stare at those shirts and gone. and the so CALL Mr Nice Man have to say, thank you for visiting PDI! or say something nice( Come again next time!) I got said once, but the customers said, I wont... Diu! this freaks me out!

Hey come on! This is Malaysia! Some of the ppl here wont even give respects, and they dun fuking care bout it. They wont even bother bout ur customers services. They dont fuking care! And some of them will juz say to themself, can u plz fuk of my face, I want to have my privacy for my shopping, so juz get out from my face, when I need u, I will find u. OK?!

and i juz keep doin and doin it.... Ppl said, be a general worker in those shops like PDI or any other restaurants and ~ ~ ~, can gain some experience!

Ya right! Damn right! Then go to work then!

Now, Im juz thinking of study, waiting for May 18! Really cant wait tat day to come! I dun want to work! I want to study!